Reflecting 2022

 

As the year comes to an end I am tempted to look back and reflect upon how far I have come from what I intended to achieve this year or maybe did not achieve.

2021 was tough, tougher for some than the rest. Therefore 2022, was about resilience, about bouncing back. Being an avid overthinker, throughout the occurrence of any event I would be driving myself crazy with all the negative thoughts but thinking about 2022 it was a good year. Relief from covid opened doors for travel. I travelled quite a bit, within India covering the entire eastern belt- Goa, Maharashtra, Gujarat, Rajasthan. I learnt to swim, which was not in the plan for the year. I was looking for the swimming classes for my then 3year old kid. But instead ending up enrolling myself. I had lots of fun on Instagram, creating reels. However, I keep getting into phases of dilemma to be or not be social media active. No matter how much we disagree, I feel it tints our perspective and triggers our urge to meet that tainted perspective.

Professionally I am in a happier place, although I haven’t been able to push myself out of my comfort zone. Comfort makes you good at giving excuses. I am good at giving excuses for all that I could have achieved but did not achieve.

I am still not back to my 'booklover' self. I miss those times when I would excitedly spend hours in a bookshop, wouldn’t be able to wait to start a new book and not be able to put it down until I have read the last page of it. I wanted to get back to reading but was too distracted and kept getting sucked in the binge watching. Still keeping up the hope to get closer to it as we usher into 2023.

Something that I personally want to work on is to be more patient.  Until years from now I never felt the consequence of my short temper. Now as a parent every time I lose it, it tends to get channeled to my kid which ends up hurting both her and me as guilt. It’s a long way down this path but I hope to be there someday; before it’s too late.