Indecisive(current mood)

There are some decisions that you will have to always live with (literally), making those decisions is the hardest and takes a toll on u. This is one of the times when I know I want to be able to make that decision myself but at the same time want somebody to make it for me, for I am not sure of it and I am not sure if I will be able to take the burden of it being wrong. I can never be sure it unless I see it working but there is still a long time for that and time to make the decision is now. All of my engg and MBA knowledge is of no help answering these questions of life and making choices that can affect it to an extent unthinkable. Somebody told me once to keep on creating as many as new dots as u can create and these will surely connect together sometime later. But for how long one has to wait for these dots to connect and show that whatever one had been choosing to do was right or not. I guess forever…coz you can never figure out in entirety the story of your life, u can never be able to stitch all the strings together unless u reach till the very end of it.

Every time I think of it I just feel if only I could get a small..a very tiny peek into the future or just a hint of what it is going to be after I make this choice but I guess it would not have been this hard had it been possible. Even after two months of contemplation and a somber blog post like this I am still standing with the same set of thoughts at the very same point...